X’mas Eve 06! December 24, 2006
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Countdown: 1 more day to x’mas; 2 more days to my b’day
Seems like i wasn’t too excited about my birthday compared to other years. Is it because i’m growing older and sub-consciously, my mind detest it though i don’t really think i’m feeling tat way right now? Or izzit due to the extensive stress tat i’ve went through since the beginning of year 3? Haa…nevertheless, i’m still glad i haven’t forgotten about my birthday! =)
I wonder what’s in-store for me on my birthday? Will it really be just-another-day or will be such an extraordinary day tat i’ll never forget? Haa..time will tell.
WOoo…it’s 24th dec 06! To whoever is reading this blog, merry x’mas to u! For those who read this after 24 dec, belated merry x’mas to u!! Santa santa, i’ve been good all this year…is there any present for me?? *ponders*
Busy December.. December 7, 2006
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Arrrghhhh~~ Today’s supposed to be a short day for me coz my test ends at 2.30pm! And guess what, i suddenly got so busy till i’m only free at 5pm! Shiiit, my formal report! Which kind soul don’t mind helping me out with my formal report?? Pleaseeeee….hahaha!
Ah well, no point complaining because i still need to get it done myself eventually. Year 3 is really a super hectic year. I’ve never been so busy since i came poly and now, i don’t even know why i’m so busy! Arrghhh~~seems that 24hr isn’t even enough for me! I need a break!! Hahaha!
Aiyoo…dec is a busy month as well. Let’s see…
- Justina’s birthday coming
- Baby’s birthday coming
- Kangwen’s birthday coming
- XueEr’s birthday coming
- X’mas coming
- Gotta submit all the formal reports
- Completing 2/3 of ICA modules
Woooo…it’s so exhausive la~~ I don’t even hef the time to prepare presents! Arrgghhhh!! But nvm, when i’m so busy…time seems to fly extra fast! Fly, time, fly!!! =)
I hate, i dread December 6, 2006
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Anticipation was what i felt on the first day.
People of different tongues would now form my new class.
Strangers of various heights and sizes;
I gave a quick gaze at my new friends.
“They seemed not bad”, i thought.
Randomly, I started a conversation with some of them.
I love my new friends!
__________
As i moved on to year 3, things began to change.
Friends turned their back against me.
I reflected my actions late at night & couldn’t find out the problems.
Tried as i might, nobody wanted to say anything about it.
Perhaps they can’t be bothered, perhaps i’m just nobody
Perhaps, i’m just annoying.
But, i will NEVER know the answer unless you tell me.
There are hundreds and thousands of reasons.
Before you make any judgement, please know me FIRST!
__________
To date, i permanently removed them from my ‘friends’ list.
All simply because of all these reasons below.
I can’t stand the way they look at me.
I hate the way they shunned me like i’ve got some deadly virus.
I hate it when they don’t update me on cancellation of lessons.
I hate it when they take class photo without me when i’m just steps away.
I hate it when they giggle among themselves and left me all alone.
I hate it when they criticise me openly in the blog.
I hate it when they complained that my English is good.
I hate it when they make nasty comments about me to their friends.
I hate it when they spread untrue things about me.
I hate it when people judge me before they don’t even know me.
Now, i DREAD going to class.
I hate seeing them because they are just a sore to my eyes.
I disregard them as my friends since they don’t treat me as one.
However, i touched my heart and i knew i did nothing wrong.
Nicey-person-detector November 28, 2006
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Oh nooo…my fyp presentation is on wed and i haven’t prepare my formal wear! Luckily baby dun mind (i hope!) shopping with me! I love him sooOoo much! He’s so fun to be with and wouldn’t fail to make me so happy. Somehow, i don’t really feel tired after seeing him…he’s just so cute! Hahaha! Oh yah, did i mention that baby dreamt tat we were having ‘cold war’ in his dream and coz i was too gl! Omg~~~how could it be!! Must be he did smth in his dream to irritate me right? Hahaha!
Anyway, i realised the world is getting more n more scary. Maybe, it’s not too good a thing to grow up actually. U’ve got no choice but to face it. Indeed, an ugly world with ugly people. Well, perhaps i shouldn’t generalise. However, there are always ‘black sheep in the family’. I guess this world is still a nice place to live in with so many things that i enjoy doing and seeing. Maybe it’s just some people out there who’s trying to complicate the world with their complicated thinking or ulterior motive(s) they had on others.
Maybe such thing don’t happen to certain people and thus, they don’t feel that the world is complicated. Well, just take it tat i’m “suay” that such stoopid things all happened to me. I don’t like to reject people and i don’t know how to. Before u start telling me all the disadavantages of not-knowing-how-to-reject-people, u gotta understand that a habit can’t be kicked overnight. I do know all the effects and consequences but i just can’t help it. I always think that being rejected is quite a bad feeling and i dun wanna hurt others. However, some ppl tend to take it for granted simply because i don’t know how to reject and it’s easy to be pushed around?
Aiya, maybe i shouldn’t take things tat hard. But, it’s really fustrating to know that u’ve been doing the job yet other ppl get the credits. I wouldn’t be so angry if it wasn’t last minute work. When people throw u last min work, they don’t think about how u feel at all. It seems like u owe it to them and by hook or by crook, they want it done; no negotiation. My source of motivation is telling myself that i’m gonna graduate soon!! It does help ya noe?
I’ve not given up hope on the world or the people out there and i still wanna meet new people despite whether they’re good or bad. Well, how do you know if a person is good/bad until u really know him/her? How nice would it be if there was sucha “nicey-person-detector”. You’ll just nid to aim the device at tat person and press a ‘start analysing’ button. The screen will thus, light up with smily faces. The more the better! Hahahaha! Ehhhh…don’t think it’s stoopid ok? Maybe someone stumbled across my blog and like do some research over the years and really come out with such device? If you ever do, please remember to acknowledge me! *grins widely*
Nonetheless, i still hef my baby! Someone whom i can run to for shelter and will listen to my woes. I know he will protect me, please don’t leave me standing alone…later i cry how? Hahahaa! I love you baby!! =)
arrrhhh-choooo! ‘scuse me. November 27, 2006
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For a moment or so, i thought my immune system’s gonna fail me.
Can u imagine that i’ve been sneezing for almost 24 hrs?!! Goshh…and i hef ever since gotten my stoopid blocked nose due to extensive sneezing. So much so for my runny nose, i guess it’s going to fly off from my face. This must be the aftermath of all my late night sleep.
Realised that i haven’t been blogging for some time; can’t take the time out. For the past few weeks, i’ve been rushing like mad for my FYP report. Thanks to this stoopid boi who can’t seem to phrase his thinking and research work into proper english. Instead of editing and compiling his work, i’m basically scrutinising every single piece of information he had typed into the report. For goodness sake, i can’t just find a single well-phrased paragraph. I’m not asking for bombastic words or flowerish English, i just need something which is ‘read-able’ by most people. Eventually, i’ve gotta re-typed everything for him after i’m done with my portion of work. It’s fustrating to be typing till the wee hours and helping someone to do the task when u’ve gotta wake up for morning class the next day.
Luckily(maybe not), i’m sick after my fyp report was submitted. I’ve still got 1 more presentation to go. Geez…seems like i dun really hef much formal wear in my closet coz i don’t need to wear it often. However, time’s not on my side. I wonder if there’s enuf time for me to get a formal wear by wed.
Things are not over after my fyp presentation. I’ve still got 2 more formal reports, 1 pair work and 1 individual assignment to be completed before my 3 weeks break in dec. So, i can expect to be staying up late to complete my assignments. What to do? It’s my last lap already; gonna give my best shot!
I hope i get well soon!! *bless me!
blur piggy-cowie baby November 11, 2006
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*yippeeeeeeeee*
Finally done with my last e-learning assignment! Who says e-learning is fun man?!! What a chore…because u’re expected to understand the things in the slides. No elaboration or whatsoever like in lecture. But, i agree it’s an easy task for lecturers to give e-learning because usually, they’ll take an average of 2-3 weeks on 1 chapter. However, in e-learning, since u’re supposed to do independent learning…u’re told to do 1 chapter within 1 week. And this is not the case for just 1 module!!! *fustrated* Nonetheless, i still completed my tasks! Hahaha!
Baby had been back from KL. He bought a nice espirit shirt and mango gummy for me! Hahaha! So happy!! In addition, he gave me the abercrombie shirt too! WoooOoo…i love it because it has the number 26; my birthday date! >.<
Can’t get enough of baby man! His jokes and laughters really brighten my day and all the wait till 6pm is all worth it. Sometimes, i wished i could sleep till 1+pm because tat means, i’m only left with a few hours before he’s off work! Hahaha! But it’s quite a bad thing because i’ve kidda upset my biological clock. Somehow, i can’t fall asleep at night. There’s like so many things running in my mind whenever i close my eyes. Can’t really recall what came into my mind because it’s like many things flashes at one go. Oh yah, did i say i forgot to attend my driving practical on thurs?!! Dammnnnn man! Waste $58.80!! So exp la…next time, i will remember to go..i MUST! Why is the stoopid driving practical so expensive!!?!?! Arghhhhh!!
My baby is sucha spy man!! He spied on me when i was on the escalator and he caught all my small actions!! Irritating boi~~~he saw me den dun wanna tell me!! Instead, he remembered every action and imitate me!! *box baby* Hahaha! On the other hand, he’s sooooo cute!! His face is sooo nice to pinch!! Hahaha! Cute baby!! *pinch pinch* He’s almost as blur as me. I guess you would agree with me after looking at the examples below.
- Using a blender to make fruit juice. First, you cut the fruits. Next, blend them well and lastly, filter it and ta-daaaaaaa! You’ve got a cup of fruit juice!!
- Using a compressor to extract sugar cane juice
- Sodium lauryl sulphate is used as a cleansing agent
- He thought the tourists are still buying the white-based sg-themed shirts
Diaooozzz! You must be surprised rite!! Hahahaha! But it really entertained me and i noe he didn’t do it on purpose. Simply because, he’s my piggy baobei! Hahahaa! This is why i love him so much. He brings me to nice place to eat(or izzit the other way round?) hahaha! But being a nice gentleman, he always foot the bill. Hahaha! So nice of him and so happy for me! He just bought me 2 colouring books today!! Hoooray!! I can do colouring when i’m feeling bored. Research hef shown that colouring is a therapeutic act. WhAhAHaA! Who knows my EQ increases because i do colouring often? Haha! I just simply loveeeee my baby so much! He’s soooo adorable and most importantly, he’s mine!! XD
[[3 more days to 14/11/06 - our 5th month anniversary!!]]
Home Alone Finale (finally!) November 5, 2006
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Hooooray!! Finally the weekends gonna end; can’t get any happier. Hahaha! When everyone’s dreading that monday is coming, i’m so super happy tat it’s coming for this week because i get to see my baby again! It’s been sucha long time since i last saw him and i wonder how he is. Must be having a good time there though, who doesn’t when it’s on vacation? Hahaha!
Finally, i dun hefta crack my brain thinking how i’m gonna spend the rest of the day because he’s gonna hef the agenda ready for me (though sometimes, there’s no agenda at all!) hahaha! But well, he’s able to think of something and i always feel good to be with him. Can’t wait for him to be back! I wan lotsa hugs hugs and i want to see him!! *grins*
Last nite, i went to checkers with gen, uk, willy and bing hui (willy’s friend). It’s been sucha long time since i last step foot in. The people kidda changed slightly, the waitress too. Well, sad to say, the place is still smoky as ever. As usual, my eyes started to tear after some time and wierd enough, i’m the only one doing so. Looks like my eyes threshold limit is super low..so much so tat i sometimes tink it works as an effective smoke detector. Hahaha! Wahhh…i tell you! There’s this particular guy who sang damn like andy lau lah!! I’m so shocked when i first heard him sing. His singing is suuuuuperrrrrbbbb. Initially, i thought they on the analogue. I abit shy to sing there…like so many good singers lah. Hahaha! But well, baby’s gonna go k-box with me soon, right baby? =)
Oh yeah! I went shopping with gen in the afternoon and i got myself a pair of heels i love so much! Hahaa! And, i did manicure with bling-bling. Oh, so lovely. Guess what? It looks so nice that it looks kidda fake because one auntie approached me and asked me if my nails are real anot and she’s so surprised that it’s my own nails! Hahaha! Actually it isn’t hard to do manicure. Perhaps one day, i’ll try it out on my own and see how! it’s sucha joy to see my fingers looking so pretty! But the drawback on this nail art is that, it’s pretty fragile and u just gotta be very careful with ur nails!
Can’t wait to see my baby! I wanna show him my manicure! HAhahaa!
Home Alone 1 November 3, 2006
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Absence makes the heart fonder, indeed very true.
Baby went to genting and KL for 4 nites 3 days. What’s more, it’s on the weekends!! Arggghhh!! This is so fustrating because i’m eating dinner all alone today!! I HATE being alone! But well, no choice. Who’s free on fri night man…everyone has their own dates already. Gen went to JB with uk. Justina went for dinner with kenny. So, who am i left with? Sianzz..so i went home at 7pm today. Really miss baby alot…i thought we could go for k-box this sun but looks like, we’ll hefta postponed it already..it’s been sucha long time since baby hug me to sleep..i miss the hugs hugs..
Anyway, baby just called me earlier on from his hotel. Hahaha! That blur guy actually left his hotel voucher on the bus and sad to say, baby and his friend had to wait at the bus terminal till the sg travel agency fax the thing over to them. What a way to start the holiday..but i guess, he’s more alert next time he goes on a travel. I’m sooooo happy to hear from him! At least, i know he’s doing well. But according to him, there’s nth much to do at genting. For that, i wouldn’t disagree with him. U can’t really do anything there other than playing in the theme park or gambling at the casino. Well, baby haven’t reach the legal age limit and thus, can’t gain entry into the casino. So, he got nth to do now except to watch tv in the hotel. Hahaa!
Guess time isn’t that hard to pass coz it’s gonna be saturday in couple of hours time. Meaning, baby’s gonna be back in another 40+ hrs or so! Hahaha! Can’t wait for him to be back! It’s a torture not to see him man! Maybe like what willy said, i need to be independent. However, it’s easier said than done. Having him around has almost become a habit and i’ve gotten so used of depending on him because he’s someone i can always rely on. Perhaps, i’ll just die one day when there’s nobody around me. Since young, i’ve been very dependent and it’s not easy to be independent. It’s just like asking an independent person to depend on another person. But well, baby don’t mind me depending on him! Hahaha! Ask him n u’ll noe it’s not easy being with me. I can be so lazy tat he needs to do everything for me.
Baby, i miss you!! I wanna go bakerzin and dine. The food looks so goooood! Hahahaa! I wanna go there with you baby! I’m waiting for you!! =)
Home Alone sooooon November 2, 2006
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Blur blur blur blur blur…how blur can i get?!!
All along i thought baby was going on his holiday on my e-learning week thurs and guess wat? He’s actually going on his holiday TOMORROW!!! Imagine the shock i get when i knew it…But, ok lah…i can still take it. Luckily my heart is strong. Hahahaha!
It’s been sucha fun day with baby coz i enjoyed my McCorn(according to baby) and this is the first time i ate apple dippers! This is like the first time i ate apple without skin and sliced nicely not prepared by my parents. Moreover, the apples were super crunchy and sweet with caramel dip (my favourite!) hahaha! Every 1st day of the month, McDonald sells their side orders for $1 because it’s their GREEN day. Perhaps, this is a move to encourage healthier lifestyle in mcdonalds. Hahaha! Good campaign though…but well, they shud reduce the price of their greens so tat i can eat them at a reasonable price more often!! Do you know that McCorn is sold at $2.50 at their ala carte menu?!! Wah sehh…super expensive la! I’ll TRY not to buy it off as ala carte. The cup corn is nice but not so expensive to the extent of $2.50. Hahahaa! I hope they revise the price of their side orders soon!! Heh-heh…
The Abercrombie T-shirt baby got for me had arrived! Hoorayyy!! Although baby said that it wasn’t as nice as he had expected, who cares! It’s the thoughts that count man! Hahaha! If i’m not wrong, the t-shirt has the number 26. And yeah! I love this number because it reminds me of my birthday which is the day i’ll receive lots n lots of presents and surprises! Well, who dun loveeeee presents and surprises?!! =P
Baby’s gonna be away for the first time. Usually, i’ll be the one not in sg but this time, it’s the other way round. Kidda not used to it because i’ve always spent my weekends with baby and what am i supposed to do this weekend?? Hmmm…no plans yet. Maybe i shall be a good girl and stay at home and play with all my online games. Btw, i downloaded a couple of online games such as gunbound, maplestory and audition. Actually, i would much prefer some RPG game but i dunno wat i shud get. Forget it, stick with online games for the time being. Anyway, i supposed it’s quite alot of games already! Hahaha!
I’m sure i’m gonna miss baby sooooooo much. It’s kidda wierd not having him around and somehow, i dun hef the mood to go out and play or something because he wun be there to wait for me after i go out with my friends. Den nobody accompany me to sms and eat dinner le. Nobody’s gonna listen to my grumbles and daily ramblings and lastly, I cannot pinch n poke him until sunday nite!! zZzzzz…please let my weekend run fast. I supposed this is one of the few time i wished my weekend was shorter. Hahahaha! Anyway, i know he’s gonna enjoy himself! It’s time for him to take a break as well! He’s been working too hard recently. Btw, he just hit his personal high record of his salary and yay, i’m soooo happy for him too!!
Baby, i love you.
Faggots around me October 30, 2006
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I really HATE my classmates, those you-know-who. Well, not all are that bad except for the other half of the biatches in my class. Seriously, i don’t simply call anyone biatches until they really get on my nerves.
Wah liao…those stoopid biatches tink tat i’m nice to bully when i don’t retailiate. Today, i learnt a new word in PQM lesson – regression. And yes, they are the most perfect example of regression in case you don’t know the meaning to that word. Regression is the act of resorting to childishness when their needs can’t be met. So, in the first place, u must be wondering what’s their need. This may sound ridiculous but it all started because she couldn’t hold the guy whom she likes to her and she started accusing people of seducing her so-called boyfriend. So, after she don’t get the attention she wanted from that guy anymore, she resorted to the stoopid childish acts. And, her stoopid friends are stoopid enough to go around influencing people that i’m sucha bitch who stole her bf. For damn goodness sake, i seriously don’t think he’s so super good after what he had done and who in the world is fighting with her for bf?? She really tinks too much la…go around blaming others when she don’t hefta charm. The worst of all, the rest of the biatches merely listened to her stories and believed her. Oh damnn…what good has our social studies do to us when we’re actually taught on bias-ness with one-person account and yet, people don’t put it to practice? For me, i just can’t be bothered to explain things to them. Since she likes to put up a pathetic upfront to the rest that her ex-bf dumped her for me, let her be. I don’t need to resort to such pathetic acts to earn sympathy from people. At the end of the day, i touched my heart and know i did nothing wrong and i’m proud of myself.
What pissed me off is that they really treat me like transparent glass. This is tolerable since i don’t wan much attention from them and i do whatever i like. However, it’s definately gonna pissed me off if there’s anything to do with studies. My sole purpose in coming to poly is to further my studies and ya, do whatever u want to me and leave my studies alone. I don’t wanna leave my education at stake due to the existance of such childish ppl. Those people told me of DTN quiz 1 week before in advance when they long ago know when’s the date. And thanks ah…DTN quiz gotta so many things to be studied and it’s ICA. Meaning, u don’t do well for this quiz, it affects your overall DTN grade.
Now, you know why i hate these peeps so much. Oh well, are they even fit to be labelled as people? I wish they disappear from my life forever. Faggots, they are.
