Xiaoxue’s Bloggie

Is it just me? February 18, 2007

Her Diary

Is the so-called ‘honeymoon’ period over? Am I just thinking too much or because i’m made to feel this way? Either way, i have this feeling that we’ve drifted abit. Though we see each other almost everyday, it’s just isn’t the same as last time. Spiritually, are we still connected? Do you feel the way i feel? I hef so many questions in my mind..

We used to have long chats at nite. Nowadays, u’ll be the first to doze off. When you say you wanted to rest for awhile, it ended up to few hours of sleep. Have you spared a thought for me who’s waiting for u? You said you wouldn’t make me cry again, but why did my tears drop again? When i asked you if you wanted to go out, you said ‘no’…let’s stay at home and watch tv, you’ll meet me online. Now that i’m online, you told me you wanted to play billard. You said it would be a fast one with a couple of games. 2 hours after ur last sms at 12mn, you said you stayed on because you saw your friends. I’m not angry because you stayed. Have you thought about me who’s at home, waiting for u?

Have you started to take me for granted? Unknowingly, u’ve broken my heart. Because of you, i’ve gave up alot of things. Do you really think tat i’m always free every evening after your work? In fact, no…it’s because i arranged everything before evening so that i can meet you after work. All you know is that u hefta meet your brothers. However, at the same time, did u realise that i’ve neglected my friends? You know i’ve never said ‘no’ when u wanna meet your brothers. I’m not blaming u that i’ve neglected my friends. The point i wanna bring across to you is that, i’ve given up alot of things just for you and how much you meant to me. Do you know how sad i was when i’m typing this entry? You always say that you will sms me later. Now, let me tell you why i’ve always replied so fast. It’s because i’m waiting for your sms to come and i’m practically looking at my hp all the time. However, when you say u’ll sms me later, it’ll usually be in a couple of hours time. Did you know that the wait is torturing and long? It’s already 3.30am when i typed this blog but i still haven’t received ur sms. Should i wait or should i not? I’ve prepared something for you but seems like i can’t show it to you today..

His Diary

It’s new year eve. My brothers asked me out and since i’m free, i should go. It’s ok that u’re at home because you hef ur tv with u. Ohh…i miss my brothers. Happy new year!